|How I Became a Midwife
My own home birth with my son Eli in 1982 created a strong desire to empower and support other women. I have since learned that many who are drawn to the healing arts professions initially embark upon their journey to heal themselves.
I began to realize that the intensity of supporting other women at this most transformational time in their lives was initiating some personal growth for me; I was healing from my own birth and postpartum experience. The nurturing and excellent care that I was giving to these birthing mothers was what I had really needed throughout childbearing process, but, sadly, did not receive. Instead I was bewildered and frightened by the course of labor, birth and the immediate post-birth events. Due to complications, I suffered from severe postpartum disorder. When I finally bonded with my son and at last experienced the feelings of joy and love for my son, it was an incredible relief. I learned first-hand of the many facets a birthing woman and mother can undergo.
It took 2 years for me to recover from my birth experience and start to feel functional again, but those years provided me with empathy for other birthing mothers.
Looking back, I realize all happens for a reason. My son and I have an extra-special bond because we had to work so hard for our relationship. I never take it for granted, and have continued to give thanks daily. I can say that my birth experience was what initially drew me to the art of midwifery, coupled with my dedication to provide the kind of support and care that I wish I could have received. I don’t think I would have the empathy, compassion and understanding that allows me to be of service to the women in my practice without my own personal experience to draw from.
What an incredible journey it has been! Through attending births I have come to understand the powerful forces that are always at work at this transformational time in a woman’s life and I slowly gain more wisdom and strength from each and every woman I serve.
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